diary bloo bloo

this week is too hot
so much going on - i hate it
sigh
the amount of driving around
and "programs" and stuff, and
it blasting in my face: the kids are growing up
yea, i get it, asshole, stop reminding me, it hurts
anyway
i just got the summer "splash pass" for the pool, so at least we have that
but it'll whiz by, i know how this goes, it's been doing this for thirteen years
i sigh all day long, don't i?

the novelty of not taking advil pm anymore has worn off

i'll keep on, but i don't wanna

i hold off on the future by lingering in the past, that way i forget everything

it's a beautiful day, and as usual, i wish i could anesthetize myself totally numb
another day, another wish unfulfilled on that tip, but i do want it, to be here, but not